How I hope u could be there 4 me ... 4eva...

我

2008-11-04T07:15:00.003+08:00

在家人眼里，我可能是一个温室里的花朵，一个随手可丢的女佣或是一个隐形人。

昨晚，我失眠了。。。也哭了。。。我发现我真的是一个隐形人。。。

有时，朋友请病假，别人很快就会发现，而我就算到学校了，一直到老师叫我，才会有人发现吧。。。

也许是我曾经受到伤害，所以我对朋友更加在乎。。。更加珍惜。

对我而言，我的朋友很多，可是没有一个是好朋友。。。也许是我太敏感了。。。我认为，不管在什么人的心中，我都是一个隐形人。。。

每次两两排队时，我总是孤孤单单一个人。我最讨厌的是班上的聚会因为我总是一个人，安静的，融不进班上的气氛。

我总是被淡忘。。。被鄙视。。。没有任何特色。。。我是多么羡慕那些总是被老师责骂的人。因为他们被骂是受到重视，同学也会注意到你。

可能是我对“朋友”这方面太敏感了，认为只要朋友不理我，我就觉得他是不是讨厌我或是鄙视我。也许是我想太多了吧。。。

曾经有人告诉我：“你好像从来没有emo 过？”我想告诉她，其实我内心的难过，寂寞，孤独及恐惧，是没人能理解的。。。

我并没有一个真正能称得上“好朋友”的朋友。。。

如果我从世界上消失了，应该没有差别吧。。。

Results r out!!!

2008-10-31T13:17:00.002+08:00

Results r out!!! at last!

Hah!I got 5th in class and 17th in lvl suprisingly, when she annouced my results to the whole class which I didnt expect.Nvm, at least I feel good. What was most surprised is that ....Jingying got 1st in class!!!( we diff class), n tat we are 5 places diff in our lvl which was most surprisingly.
In our class, Jiahui got 1st, 6th in lvl
Jolyn got 2nd
Kelvin got 3rd,
Jit Hui got 4th,
n 5th ... is me!!! hah!u muz be tinking "lol!" more lol now rite?

btw, I kana involved wth the Mother Tongue Symposium which like every sec sch thing, got raffles girls, ACS, tanjong katong girls, ngee ann sec, river valley high, yishun JC oso. then suay suay i in the youth and new media part when I not very gd wit hmedia so nid research research and research then write script within 4 days to be exact.

Also in Nov, I hav got 3 BBQs.
1 for 6.1
1 for 103
1 for Drama

Talking abt drama, Congrats to Jiahui for joining drama and accompanying me.U will hav a lot to suffer from now on.BUT u will oso get camps which r fun!!1haha!!!
Now, i hav nothing to say so ending the post.BB to everyone!

103 Memories

2008-10-09T12:22:00.005+08:00

103 M3mOrl3s

Tis entry is specially for the beloved XMS 103'08.

02 ,03 & 04 Jan:

Orientation, met Zi En, Yong Ming and Mdm Abey.CCA selection n the Selection of Class Comittee.

6 Feb:

Spring It Up! n got 2nd for it!

26 Feb:

E-learning for MT, Geog and Maths

29Mar:

Sports Day!

12 Apr:

Homecoming! The selling of 'co ro poke'! haha

26 May-22 Jun:

June Holis!!!(though there's alot of hmk)

24Jun:

Science Centre Trip!

11 July:

X- country. rained but ran. sob..-_-

a while later...

Drama Sessions replaced sum el lessons. miss ross is so cute and funny!

08 Aug:

Class Outing @ Sentosa!!! (though we did not play all together)

until now...

26 Sep- 10 Oct:

Final Year Exams!

and soon...

Holidays would be here and one year have past.

All the fun and laughter...

Scolding from teachers...

Holidays and vacations...

Tests and examinations...

The leaving of Jing Pei,

Arrival of Xing Jie

N loss of Suhaila

Class of 103'2008

will always be together!

Let us always cherish this class of ours

and walk towards the

Class of 203'2009

May we always have memories!

EOYs

2008-09-24T18:59:00.003+08:00

Guys, EOYs are here!may all of u hav gd luck for them.study hard for them, okie?but im not reali studying hard myself haha.
so sian... between exams still got sch...sigh... rushing up notes for last min revision.this is ,in chinese, ling shi bao fo jiao.and my chi relief teacher juz toked abt that 2dae.the teacher so cute!!!! i luv her!!! i wan her teach me next year.she is lyk my real chinese teacher,the way she tok.but who noe?! mayb all the chi teacher in sch tok lyk that.but i juz find her cute.
8 daes of exams,2 with 2 papers,1 with 2papers+ oral.damn die!!!!
gotta study hard now.offline-ing

Teachers' Dae ~~late ...

2008-09-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

Tis is a late post...no time no post le, shld hav posted earlier
On XMS Teachers dae celeb,we were released at 11.30am( :( sob... so late...), we ecven hav sch that dae,so sian during the lessons...
The concert is most fun. we actually wanted to sabo our form teacher, but dunnoe where she gone.so sad, wanted to c her on stage, haha =))) one of the SLs actually imitated my maths teacherand it looked so funny.and who noes? mr chee and play the guitar; ms kuck cn actually play the drum and she has a gd vocal too!!!she sings well... and the dance by 8 female and male teachers was so funny( 4 of each gender)!!! ms sia and miss fizah so ccccccccccuuuuuuuuuutttttttttteeeeeeeeee!!!! the teacher that pair with miss tee oso !!!the actions so cute and funny!!!another female teacher i dunnoe is who but sumthing tells me i will meet her sumdae and it aint gd; =(
oh well, teachers dae was fun but i was bored with lessons...
nvm,it'll be better next yr...

Drama Night

2008-08-02T13:49:00.004+08:00

Yay!!!Drama night was a huge success!!!There were too many ppl and sum had no seats so we had to add benches.Mum, dad, zhujun,lin yu,wen yuan,jia hui,vanessa,rachael,simone,jia hong were there too.I oso saw teachers, like mrs khor, mr too,mr zhuang,miss low,mdm liew, mr zainal, n most "importantly", 'mdm u noe who". c her then so sian, i bet a lot of ppl will hav the same sentiments as me. i was so happy that dae,all our hard work has paid off.i almost wanted to cry out but evrything was so COOL!!! that happiness cannot be explained , i was juz so .... argh,i 4got that word. nvm i juz luv drama nite, everybody has bonded together n i believe that everyone is as one now.well, i tink that drama nite is successful and it will too from now on with us around.
well, i guess i shall end tis now. signing off.

HGP Cimo

2008-07-20T10:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterdaes is my pri sch open house so i went to take a look.me & my friends(actually is whole class) agreed to wear black but dun noe why. sadly it turned out to b a warm, sunny day.so we were so warm!!!after exploring the sch 4 a while, we went ot hg point to buy bbt and me +rita bought our lunch. we were told to go back to our classroom to meet after that.however when we were at our classroom they were @ hg point so we went back again.they were @ macdonalds but others wanted KFC so I went KFC & rita went mc's then we ltr went to hg mall. cos she hav 2 do CIP , shelving @ library,. so i accompanied her. then i looked for books and bought refils @popular. then i browsed through books then went home.
it was very fun that dae, i met so many friends. everyone hasnt changed except for those who cut their hair. haha
signing off!!!

Drama session replacing EL lessons

2008-07-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

Im so happy:D!!!Drama session replaced el lesson!!!I luv the teacher!!she was so cool and funny!!! In the first lesson, she gaved us nicks.u noe wat mine is??? its AH LIAN!!!its lyk OMG" i hav friends called"jiajia liang teh" and "ET" and oso "Ah Meng" and "Ah Fen" when his a guy!!!
we oso played space invasion and theatre sports.they r very fun and i played both of them in my CCA b4 cos my CCA is drama.hahas....... The second lesson(which is 2dae) we started o improvisation which means we nid to act out but b4 that we played a game whereby the 20 of us will nid 2 sit on the chairs but when chairs r getting lesser u will have to stand.the chairs bcome lesser n the 20 of us basically stands on 4 chairs but we cant do it with 3 chairs cos we hav got a few little ones.so one of my friends actually carry her up then she stands so its a place for 2.ha, great idea isnt it?haha...4 the acting,sigh...im in the 2nd scene so .... my friends say that the scene is super funny but i guess it prbably is since all of them says so.its funny bcos of the movements or lines,i dunnoe.
nvm i gotta sleep now.next time got drama session then talk more... haha haha haha haha

XMS Cross-Country

2008-07-11T20:22:00.001+08:00

yesterdae's our first ever XMS cross-country @ Bishan Park. It was so cool. ...and so dirty.it was full of mud.cos it was raining that dae. but the thing is IM LATE!!!I went with my friends but we missed 2 buses cos they are ALL FULL of XMS sudents gg to cross- country.so we took another bus but ended upwalking 4 30mins cos WE GOT LOST!!! on the way we met teachers and students as marshals for the race ltr who told us "walk straight" it was so many times that i was gg to be sick of it. our chairman kept calling us asking where we are. it was so irritating but not too much la! and we walked for 30 mins so we walked in the rain for 30MINS!!!so sad...
BUT it was so fun!!!i was so surprised that i ran 2km in 14 mins!!! yeah!!! however, 2dae, my shin muscles is so painful,ouch!but i love cross-country n i wish to hav it again BUT NOT @BISHAN PARK!!!
i nid to do my hw now im ending my post.
signing off!!!

Drama Nite

2008-07-10T21:09:00.005+08:00

sob... so sad..due to time constrain,drama sessions are now ending at at least 8pm!!!!!! which means i go home late , no time to do hmk, to time to go msn <<>> and no time to let my hair dry after bathing.Arh!!!
i feel so like going hell , so stressed up oready, and yet sum irritating ppl tell me,
" can I not go? every time lang fei shi jian one. go there still muz help props ppl. i not in props one leh?!" BUT HELLO?! u choose 2 be in drama and u tell me lang fei shi jian. but i noe la, that person may b put as last choice one then kanna... BUT u r in drama oready?! half a yr oready still cannot get into the qi fen! then u n another one keep fan wo say" we cn go oready or not?! " BUT its lyk still got alot of things and u tell me "do 4 wat? we not i props leh?!!!!" if got one friend got tution nid leave then she tell me " then i oso cn go rite?" she got tution got wat thing to do with ue?
i so angry ove rue u noe noe?! we gd friends one then suddenly bcome lyk that i oso dun want. i dun 1 to say in front of ue so i cn oni say in blog but i guess u da gai noe who ue r then stop irritating me or no friends. ue got tution i oso got hmk. ur EERYTIME leave EARLY, I do home ltr than ue u still dare to say.Oso u miss bus not my prob ok? u leave lyk 1 hr earlier and u say reach home same time as me!!! i live near cannot meh?! u want to come to tis sch not my prob.u choose to come here when u live far is not my prob lor...
1st time throughout my life i feel so angry u noe?! yet we r friends.... ue broke my record of NOT SCOLDING PPL DIRECTLY EITHER THROUGH NET OR FACE 2 FACE. is bcos i dun want that 3 guys to laugh at ue, trying to give ue mian zi. yet u dun give me mian zi. i so sad u noe... i hope that u noe wat ur doing ... i dun want to break that friendship...
pls ... dun make me sad... i feel lyk crying now... i hope that u will get to realise ur mistake and i will try to edit mine too. i dun want one day i talk to ue like how i talk to the guys in ur class.i dun want to scold ppl, but if ue make me angry , ue will c that side of me and ue wont want to when u saw it... not even my "daughters" saw that side of me b4. cos i noe every one of us has a bright side and a dark side..,
i feel so much better now. i chose to write here cos i noe u dun hav my blog add so im sure u wont c this (maybe, at least 80% u wont c) i juz want ue to regconise that not everything in tis world is controllable by ue not even the mist powerful or the most richest person in the world u can control. not everything can sui xin suo yu one...u angry , u sad oso no use... pls be more mature... i dun want to shout at ppl , scream at them , n lose that precious friendship...
i juz dun want to lose that part of life...
Wow ... the first time i wrote so much in my life...perhaps onni friendship can make me write ans express my feelings...
E emo gurl who treasures friendship

My Busy Week

2008-07-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

I was sooooo tired 2dae!!!reach home at 7.30pm....so sad :C tis week is lyk so busyyyyyyy!!! mon:youth day hol
tues: got rehearsal
wed(which is 2dae):got Drama, came back at 7.30pm
thu:got Drama, so shld be the same
fri: got Cross-country
sat: got sci project
sun:nid go IKEA with seniors!!!
c how busyyyyyyyyy i m. gonna die by activities and hmk!
Gonna do hmk le.i siam le!!!

Continued

2008-07-06T21:40:00.002+08:00

Continuing from the previous one, cos i 4got to sae sumthings.oso anyone who noe how to remove or add a link to the blog pls tell me oso kk?pls and thx and anyone or everyone.

My edited blog

2008-07-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

Alas, my blog has been edited by adding friend tests and cbox.i figured these things myself by decoding the html and and figuring out where to put these code.cos hte last place which i put my cbox and tests are below my blog and i mean way below. but of course, i looked through the instructions for the cbox to c where to put so i did that for my test as well. wats troubling me is where to get a wishlist. sigh... i envy friends who have wishlists and i want it too!!!anyone who noes the exact procedue pls tell me by leaving a comment. and its best if u noe the exact website and procedue like do this first then that then this and such. so if anyone noe pls leave a comment. thx very much!!!

My Drama Nite

2008-07-05T11:42:00.002+08:00

Hi!My Drama Nite is near so basically i will not hav time to post entries le.Cos as a SM, i mus be oso be dilligent and take care of watever problems.so , sigh... ,sad...actually i dun use blogs as often as other bloggers.cos i hav my msn spaces. oso theres a lot of hmk so oso no time..

First time writing

2008-06-22T17:10:00.002+08:00

Hi!!!tis is my first time writing.tis is my first ever blog.its all bcos wei ling asked me to create one but its onli now that i realise its veri cool!Im stil not veri sure how to use a blog but i cn ask my veri gd friends who all hav got a blog.i guess im not reali the blog-ing type of gurl... my friends r veri cool,they all noe a lot of singlish,english words that i dun understand a single thing and they noe how to create blogs and all the settings that i dun understand at all.so i guess im not veri suitable for blogging.oh well,lets not talk abt tis.im so sad that i dun noe abt blogs...sob...sigh...